Heartaches. Heartbreaks.
Wednesday 24th November
12.05am. Rainy and Humid weather
I turned around, there she was standing right in front of me. Yes. True enough i couldn’t believe my eyes, I took a gasp. She gave me that smile again, the one I couldn’t forget no matter what. With a pain in my heart, I gave a smile back.
All these times, I tried my best to put her out of my head, hoping to ease the pain. But, to no avail. Flashes of our memories comes by running through the back of my head even how much I tried to get myself occupied with insignificant stuffs.
A little success came by, and i had lessen my thoughts about her. But today there she was, appearing at my work place. Sat at table 39 with her friend, I tried my best not to look at her but realizing that I’ve been taking quick glances of her. And when she noticed she would always give me a sweet little smile, and the more it pains my heart to smile back when its killing me inside.
I don’t want it to happen anymore, anything for now. Just wishing she would take great care of herself and the life inside of her. I wouldn’t be there providing happiness for her if she needed, so I really do hope she would find that right guy to be there taking good care of her, carrying on the part that I have failed to.
To E, If u ever chance upon this, I want to let u know that I am happily satisfied to even be a part of your life.
Always,
Dummy-fied
Most Memorable…
It was joyous…
Seasons greetings to all fellow bloggers and living organisms, Merry Christmas!
Had the best Christmas night yet, everything just felt so right. Headed down to Furama Hotel Riverfront yesterday evening and I could say I just had a hell-outta-party! Everyone in the hotel room was like having some Drink-Drunk-Drama shit, we drink and partied till we puked. Gross! But it was fun, the whole hotel room was covered with thick fogs of cigarette smokes and smells of hard liquor.
Before I even knew it we were all going crazy like there was no tomorrow. Damn, is the hotel room really screwed up by us. =D But on second thoughts…Who cares!
Laughs. Well I really do hope you folks had a messed up night like what my clique had on this memorable night. Ciaos!
Best wishes.
Signed
Dummy-fied.
Hit The Slow Button…
Too fast…
Rushing days, busy lives. Any one wants to hit the pause button? I guess we really should. Dread those rushing lives of the early wee hours when trying to get to work? So did I .
Slow it down a little will ya? Alright so here it goes, I was heading down to Orchard MRT to catch up with my mates and there the crowd was, getting ready to compress everyone to the back of the train. As all Singaporeans know, once the train came, every one will start squeezing their way in. (practically trying to defy the scientific fact that matters cannot be compressed.) ( That is one of the things that can be miraculously done only by Singaporeans)
Lets drop that. All that I want you all to understand is, life isn’t all about rushing through and fro. Take a step back, lower the pace. You will learn to see that life is much more beautiful and mesmerizing when you get to look around and understand the surroundings and people around you.
Take a break from that fast-paced life. It will all be worth it.
Signed
Dummy-fied.
The Dread…
–Days are a drag….
Past few days have not been such a breeze. Questions pondered my mind like a bullet train, flashing thoughts came and passed again and again. I’m drained but still going well.
Am I really giving it up, or am I still doubtful about my incomplete past? Hanging on a thin line between trying again and giving up, I am tied down with the questions in my head.
Can we ever break free from such an oblivious problem which takes the very part of our lives? Or are we to postpone it everytime it comes to our mind, and in the end we never got a damn clue about it?
Please give me a sign…
Dummy-fied.
Its’ going down….
–Upcoming days sucked big time..
Never felt so lost in my life. Drenched in nothing but pain, I’ve lost all forms of communication with my friends. Work has been draining me out in all directions, I tried my best to put up a piece of good work to my superiors but it does not seem to be working very well.
Worst of all, I had lost my mobile 2 days ago in camp. Not knowing how or who to turn to, I just sit there quietly as the days passed by. This world is really getting corrupted, even if you did not do anything wrong it doesn’t mean that someone would not land a big step on your tail.
This post is quite fucked up, sorry about the mixed thoughts.
I’ve been unable to thing straight lately.
Signed,
Dummy-fied
Never knew what my life would’ve been if i hadn’t met you 5 years back.
–Its been so long…
I never knew the truth could hurt so much every time it crossed my mind. The pain was just overbearing but all I could do is stare. Just getting the glimpse of your happiness from the smile on your face is what that had kept me going for all this while. I will just give you this heartfelt congrats and move on to a happiness that was never meant to be mine.
Child-hood…
Another day passes, life goes on…
Ever crossed your mind what if one day you could return to where your childhood started, when time was never an issue to you and endless fun was all that mattered?
Walking passed a couple of playgrounds today made me crossed my mind about my childhood memories. Playing tag around blocks and sliding down a slide filled with sand. How we used to get our asses whopped for dirtying our clothes at the playgrounds.
How many of us actually took some time off from our tedious working life and slowing it down to those nostalgia moments? Like, by just putting our ages aside for that moment, head back down to TOYS’R’US and have a jolly good time! Well how does that sound? Sounds good to me. Or just play that tag-you’re-it! game that caught me like a fever 13 years back.
Making this post just makes me feel that at times, being a problem-less kid might be just great.
